Crossroads 2

As my rotations have already nearly finished, I came to the decision to go into fine art. This is because I think that my fine art rotation work was the most successful and I had the most fun doing it which, I think is really important when you are choosing something this life - influencing. I have also enjoyed vis com rotation too, particularly the animation project – I think I would continue doing some sort of fine art animations when I continue onto BA or just for the fun of it. Of course, there were some challenging parts too during all the projects- I found it hard to work as a team, which is vital to some areas of design and I also found it hard to every time make something new and inventive in strict boundaries of briefs, it was also quite hard for me to work in 3D, especially in 3D spatial rotation, where 3D structures have to have a special purpose. During all rotations, my view of design has changed  - I now understand how many things can designer can go into doing, that is also a form of art, only that its much more common than art. But I still think that I am an artist - I do not like set frames to my work, where the outcome is precise. I find it easier to work on my own than in a team. And I try to express my feelings in my work, rather than trying to make something with a purpose.  I believe that fine art gives you much more freedom of what you do, than any other pathway. This is very important for me, as when I feel pressurized to do something not the way I want, which happens a lot in design, I do not feel like I am enjoying whatever I am doing anymore. I think I am more about having my space to work that nobody tries to invade. I think that I also want to be an artist and not a designer because I grew up in a house with a lot of classical art and I have always admired the people who actually make art themselves – the sort of thing you should not touch and just look. I like the specialty of art.  I have always wanted to be in the position when somebody else looks at something that I did myself and admires it like I did in my childhood, thinking it is so precious, that if you touch it would break or disappear. I think that this is the oldest thing I have ever wanted – to become a fine artist. I recently got shown a book, where I, when was 5 years old wrote that I will become an artist. And here I have to say that although I have always wanted that, I did consider other possibilities – I have enjoyed other subjects at school and other rotations during the project, but fine art is my passion, something I feel I should be doing with my heart. I hope that my feelings do not betray me and I will achieve something in the pathway I am about to choose.